Dealing with chronic pain sucks. What’s really annoying is dealing with the pain and still working. Seeing others come in all strung out on pain medications. I don’t want to be that person. I have people saying go on disability. Who wants to live on 600 dollars a month? That wouldn’t even cover my house payment. I missed work yesterday. Had to have 5 injections into my shoulder muscle in hopes that the Lidocaine would help numb the pain. Any idea just how bad that shit stings??? But hey I am still not on narcotics. I refused to go that route. Motrin, muscle relaxers and many different vitamins. Along with my TENS unit and Cryoderm cream. The muscle relaxers makes me so drowsy that usually I don’t take it unless I am going to bed. There was no way around it yesterday. I had to miss so I could take my meds. It really depresses me that I disappointed my crew. I never like missing. I truly hate when people call in because working nights no one covers for you. The other nurses have to pick up your slack. I do everything that the doctor instructed. I still trying to exercise, lift weights and lose the pounds. All the while trying to balance out what is too much or not enough. I have my hours cut back to 40 hours a week to avoid over working my shoulder. Only to have people “jealous” that I have to cut my hours back. Sometimes it would be nice to have normal aches and pains. Instead of pain that causes life to stop. So I didn’t get to do my work out. Because once again I had to “baby” my stupid shoulder pain. So once again I have to start from scratch. Every time I move up the levels on my workout sickness or injury makes me start all over again at level one. UGH THIS SUCKS! Okay yea I know whininess. I shall suck it up and move on.