Depression it’s what’s for Dinner

This neck issue is extremely depressing.  So I am going to update/whine/ and a little bit of ranting.   So you have been warned.
So I was told by the doctor ,my work chose for me ,that I was denied my workman comp claim.  The lady from workman’s comp would call me and tell me why and she would charge my current insurance for all the crap my work decided was what we had to do first.  When my doctor would have sent me to my myelogram weeks ago.  So I waited for this dumbass woman to call. No call.  I spent most of the remainder of the day crying.  I was suppose to be getting my new house.  Now I am not working.  Running quickly out of sick time.  I did call and boo hoo to my boss.  Who told me I will have a job no matter what.  That great except that’s not going to help with the new house I was suppose to get.  I have the funds to make it a few months with no job.  That will eat all my savings for my new house.  My man who never really wanted the damn house keeps saying well maybe it’s for the better.  WHAT PART OF I HATE THIS FUCKING TIN CAN do you not understand?  He is actually trying this time to console me I know but I want to choke him at the same time.  This man who won’t move from this god forsaken redneck hell hill.  I could make twice the money I make now and work less.  I wouldn’t have this neck issue.  I wouldn’t be working mandatory overtime.  No wonder I hurt. Too many hours  and lack of staff.  That’s a whole other rant.
So I called her the next day 6 times and she finally answered the damn phone.
Well even though I was injured at work, on the clock, helping a patient my company can’t seem to pin point when I was injured.  So I was denied.  Meaning I got screwed.  I assume it has to do with the fact I have a previous workman’s comp.  What the effing difference does it make?  It happened at work!  It took a week for the dumb lady at the insurance claim to tell me this.  Especially after leaving messages everyday!  So she help eat up my vacation time.  So fine I will let me insurance pay for it.  So now I am waiting on said dumbass to send my denied letter to my neurologist office.  Which she said she has already sent.  I called and left a message on the secretaries answering machine.  YESTERDAY.  Still no call back or no idea what the hell I am waiting on.  Yea I am not a happy camper at all.  I called again today.  Redirected to that effin answering machine.  I didn’t leave anymore messages.  I called back the doctor’s office and asked to see if she had any luck since no one is returning my calls and this doctor’s office is the only one that believes in answering the phone.

DID I MENTION I AM STILL WAITING ON GETTING SCHEDULED FOR THIS MYELOGRAM???? 
 
So I wait.  I am not a very patient person.  These people who don’t do their jobs and follow up with messages.  All I want to know is what the hell am I waiting for.  It will take at least a week to get this effing thing scheduled and a few days to follow up with it.  Worse case scenario I am looking at yet another surgery.  Which will be a month to schedule, 6weeks to heal and 4 weeks therapy.  I hate people. 
I swear if my husband ask me if my shoulder/neck is better I am going to make his throat hurt from choking him.  No it still there.  Yes I have good days.  Today I am having a bad day.  No I didn’t do anything I wasn’t suppose to.  It’s fucked up and until they fix it there is no being normal again.  Not that I was ever normal.  Just abled bodied.
So there is my rant.  It took me a few days to type this.  I was pretty depressed and down and out.  Hard to type when all you want to do is cry.  Now I am in the angry, furious, might choke you if you look at me wrong stage.  Not sure what’s the next stage is….